Finally free

I feel free.

No it's not the kind of freedom you're thinking of. 

This is deep seated freedom from issues plaguing me for more than a year that I have not been able to deal with. I've been living in the liminal space. I've filled 3 diaries in the past year with things I could not tell anyone about just trying to fix myself... to no avail. Like my close friend said, I went crazy.

There was little I could do to run from the memories. Everything I studied reminded me of it. Even during the exams I was wrestling with my mind and fighting for my sanity.

I've been trying to get it out. I could not.

Not till last night.

You cannot imagine how heavy a burden you're carrying is until it is lifted. The weight I was carrying was huge, and now that it's been taken away, I suddenly find myself with a clear heart and mind. And I realise I have not been functioning at 100% for a long time.

It's great to suddenly feel whole. But it's scary too. 

Dear Lord... My heart and my soul, I give you control.

Manson Mun

I don't care if your picture spills out of the design template and messes up my blog. You are so endearing I am willing to sacrifice my blog just so I can post your picture at original size. Sorry my blog is too small for your overwhelmingly adorable smile. Someone please help me I'm melting.

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And life as I know it, ends.

Blessed be the name of the Lord.

Mental Set

Why didn't I ever think of eating subway cookies with milk?

Just so you know, double chocolate chip subway cookies with cold milk is to die for.

Liminal Teenage Dream

I did a Google search after listening to Katy Parry's song.

"You. Make. Me. Feel-like-I-live-in-a. Teenage dream..."

I heard it as "liminal" instead of "live-in-a".

No hits on Google.

-:-

Before I slept I prayed to God to take me into another world in my dreams.

He brought me to another planet.


I think it was the moon.

My vision was a little clouded, there were crystals on the floor.

I felt much, but I needed to stay on focus and make the best of the situation.

I was given an opportunity to do what few ever had, and I was going to make use of it.

So I took out a DSLR and started snapping through my clouded vision.


Then there were others, and we were being plagued by spiders.

The spiders were impossible to kill, and they could fly.

Flying spiders.

They looked like the creatures described in the story Fantasia 2001.

I enjoyed my dream. Especially coz I treasured the time in it.

-:-

Oh my ear

My right ear has been hurting.

In fact, it is no longer as sensitive to the UHF on the LRT that my left ear can hear.

I wonder if it's coz I was pointing at the moon.


Heh. Time to do an experiment.

Now that my ear is better, I'm going to point at the moon again and see if it causes further ear damage.

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I was in the toilet in the NUS library.

2 auto taps, one push button tap.

One dude doing his hair in front of the push button tap.

So I went to the auto tap and stuck my hands under it.

The water flowed for but a second.

I tried moving my hands around to activate the sensor.

I found that the only spot that my hand could be detected (and the tap starts working) was when my hands were away from the stream of water.

Like... what?

I think the dude next to me standing in front of the manual tap (but not using it) was paid to stand there for a psychological experiment to see how people cope with frustration.

Down with these dodgy psychologists.

Love Story

I'm really falling in love with the power of film now.

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So dad, mom, Rachel and I walked into Shears hall for supper.

"Are we allowed to come in here?" Rachel asked.

"No," I said as I pointed to a no trespassing sign.

"Just act as though you're from NUS."


Rachel could pass off as an exchange student. She strode in.

Dad, I don't know how it's possible, fits in so well that last time I was here with him people asked me which hall he stayed in. I think it's the bright running singlet and sunglasses.

Now mom... Woah this one was tough.

I told her to put on a poker face as we entered the hall...