Sorry I've not been writing much. It isn't just cuz school is busy. There was a lot I've wanted to blog about.
But I've been struggling because I'm finding blogging so... narcissistic.
It started when I tried vlogging. I just could not stand the sight of my face promoting myself. I never liked seeing myself in videos in the first place.
There are quite a few vloggers out there who make me feel so uncomfortable when I don't find their jokes funny. But they still keep making videos. They contort their face and try to make us laugh and it's just awkward. I don't want to be like that.
Then I realised blogging is not much better.
Here was a blog with my name on it. And my face was at the side previously.
And my personal flag. Like seriously. And I am talking about my feelings and my views.
Really, who cares?
It seems the hundreds of hits I get on the blog are google searches that lead to my essays on Batman, Pokémon and Social Class. But I still put out my heart here in a painfully self centred way.
I resorted to just reblog pictures and videos a lot more. It's better this way till I figure out this one question.
Is it possible to say what I feel without coming across as painfully self-absorbed?
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