When the things you hold dearest to you are taken away

You feel a sense of lostness or meaningless.

I felt it before-
after my O levels were over,
after I returned from India,
after I got rejected by Medicine.

When the one thing you strived with all your heart and soul for is taken away, you feel empty.


They've taken away Psychology from me.

It took me years to find a niche area, and I have finally found it. I live and breathe psychology. I've been practicing it before I started studying it. I love it. They just took it away from me by saying I cannot major in it because my statistics paper did not make the grade twice.

I should feel horribly empty now more than ever.


But I don't.

Even at my lowest moment yesterday, amidst emotions and some tears, I did not feel lost. No, this time there was a firm sense of hope and confidence.

I've had to deal with loss many times already, and I've learnt to hold on to things loosely. Things of this world at least. I hold on like crazy to the things eternal.

So when the things of this world fade and I'm left bare, I look at the huge hands of God and I fear nothing..

⁸For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,^[m] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, ³⁹neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
-Romans 8:38-39

It's a reassuring thing to know. I don't fear the road, for I know I can make it, but that doesn't make it any less of a strain and pain to travel.

Yesterday was the worst day I've had, but tomorrow will be a better day. Oh yeah, tomorrow will be one good day.