Justin, Stop Talking To Yourself!

Yesterday I felt I was freaking a girl in school out.

Okay that sounds bad. I probably perceive it worst than it is...

"Justin... I can help you... You know I've always been good in these situations..." It was my old self speaking, enticing me to go back to him.

No. I will resist. I'd rather freak a girl out by being myself than attract a girl by being something I'm not.

Right?

o.O

We were at Psychology Tutorial today. Mental Disorders was the topic.

What abnormal behaviors do you have? We discussed in groups and shared with the class.

One girl must arrange her colour markers in rainbow order.

Another has to wash her hands the moment she touches her shoes.

It came to my turn. I said I talk to myself.

"I already mentioned that," my tutor with hair as black as Professor Snape's said.

No, it's different. I talk to all 3 of me.

Now the whole class suddenly turned towards me.

I quickly explained.

When I'm happy I'd just converse with myself, like in the mirror- how are you Justin, oh I'm feeling great. Or I would psychoanalyse myself- So Justin, why did you do that? I don't know... Normal stuff like most people do.

But when I am stressed I start having other voices shouting with angst...

Now the whole class was staring at me.

Erm... Please stop staring guys. You're making us feel uncomfortable.

o.0.O

The guy next to me opened up too. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was in JC and very stressed. I would hear an angel me and a devil me. The devil would ask me to give up and just go and jump.

So when did you first get help?

When I dashed out of my house to jump off and my dad grabbed hold of me. My mom panicked and they brought me to hospital.

Wow.

I'm surprised he could share it actually. I thanked him for doing that.

Want to conclude with something intelligent but I don't have anything.