Dear God,

I'm sorry.

For this whole week I've been so excited about blogging to no one that I completely forgot to talk to you. I feel the excitement of experiencing something outside, preparing a short write up about it and finally posting it up on this blog. But at the end of the day... what really is the point of this blog if it's distracting me from what's important?

God... it's been a week. One week ago I left my old self behind. It was time for change and I really have begun to change. But it's getting so hard Lord... It is.

I'm sorry God, I wanted so much to give up and just go back to being who I was last week. But I feel different this week. I wake up in the morning and I don't feel a sense of purposelessness in getting up. I'm stepping out of my comfort zone and helping so many people in tiny ways that I never would have before. It's amazing. Thanks for finally pushing me to change.

Lord I need help. I need to remember that any chance of succeeding in this change in me could only be because of you. Lord help me to be able to talk to my parents, and help them to understand what we're trying to do. Help my friends to not be so politically correct in telling me I'm a good person and that I don't need to change.

Dear Lord, I want to live like I was dying. Teach me to do things I have never done before, and bring me to places that I have never been before. Please keep me safe and keep me holy, and provide the friends and family to support and keep me in check.

I want to live for you. In every place I go, with every person I meet.

I love you Lord. Help me to.

Love,
Justin Hui