Lost

I think that's all I can say.

I did something today that

.

blank.

I don't mean my mind's blank.

My heart is blank.




It's not empty it's blank.



I did something today that would have been something that I would have wanted to do for a while. It was impulsive. It was quick. It was the spur of the moment. My heart beat fast. and faster still. And still even more as adrenaline flooded my veins.

We don't often get the opportunity to do something that someone else will remember for the rest of their lives. When the chance comes, it's simple.


Take the shot, or walk on.


But it's never that simple. This one shot requires you to go against society. This one shot requires you do do something different, something salient, something almost or even absolutely outrageous. If you really want to be remembered, if you want to change someone's life, you have to step out of your comfort zone.

This one shot demands no less than all of you.


Today.

I took that shot.


And i smiled for the next hour.


But the euphoria is over. The rush of emotions, the extreme rush of emotions, are over.

It's not something to feel or I feel guilty about. Don't worry. It's pure.

But I'm left empty.



Maybe it's just that I've wanted for so long a chance to love purely and sincerely. And in this one instance I did.

And now i'm empty.

Poured out.

Nothing.


left


That's all