Sunday, February 27, 2011

The toughest week in my year

It's very easy to drive a method actor insane.

Just ask him to play 2 roles.

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Every time I hear of what's happening in Libya, I cry.

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It has been the busiest week in my entire year thus far.

I'm fighting a war with a lack of sleep.

In times like this when time is short and everything seems to be just about to fall apart, I had to do something to keep my sanity.

So when I had no time for anything, I did something that I have no time to do.

Because I need that touch of humanity. I need to not be stuck in doing things, and feeling emotions that are scripted by someone else.

So I spent the whole of today making this:



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Please, pray for me.

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I had a dream last night that made me so uncomfortable.

I know there are things I hide even from myself.

I shun it coz I don't dare to face even the thoughts of it.

But they are coming up out of my subconscious when I'm asleep.

It hits me when I'm down.

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Avril Lavinge is divorced.

Justin Bieber celebrates his birthday on Tuesday.

3 comments:

  1. hello, my com crashed this morning when i was posting the following comment, so i don't know if it got through but it's up to you whether you want the comment to be approved, i have no idea how this comment thing works!

    the week before bump-in is always the worst =\ just hang in there for one more day, and after that it really does get better, esp for cast members *hugs*

    very strangely, i feel that my emotions are more typically scripted in my role as a vp - people need to see you as strong, calm, in control, approving, whatever. i feel a bit like i'm supposed to be whatever people want me to be. this role that i'm taking on now feels easier to deal with, like exploring sides of myself that i usually don't bring out. the vulnerability of opening up myself like that is quite scary, so i'm very thankful that you all have been a very good family and supportive co-workers.

    Feel better soon, will pray for you <3

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