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I was awoken by strong wind and rain.

Jumping to my feet, I rushed to close all the windows in the house.

Then I sat down and felt the crushing sense of loss.

I was having a wonderful dream.

The sense of loss is not because I had to wake, but that I had to forget.

We forget our dreams by the time we get out of bed.

So what I normally do is have a very long alarm that gets louder and louder over 15 minutes. It starts with slow music that does not wake me, but affects me in my dream, drawing me slowly towards the surface. I become conscious that I am dreaming and quickly recall as much as I can of what just happened in my dreams. Then the music gets louder and I start to awaken, but I stay down and don't start thinking about reality yet, instead focusing all my attention on the memories of my dreamscape. By the time my last loud alarm sounds, I have moved all my dreams to storage memory, and I get up and quickly type my dreams down, for they will still be forgotten in a couple of days.

Today I woke even before my first alarm rang.

(I did not copy this playing music thing from Inception though they did use it in the movie. I was doing this way before the movie was shown, and thus identified with the movie a lot.)

So without the time to package the memories, I lost almost all recollection of the past 8 hours. I forgot meeting the girl I liked, I forgot what I said to her, and I forgot how the conversation went. I forgot everything except the fact that I met the girl I liked and said something significant to her (and because I can't remember what I said, I think having this memory sucks more than forgetting everything). Felt as though I just wasted my last 8 hours.

-:-

In the lift on the way to school, I looked at myself in the mirror, and completely did not recognise myself.

I look like a totally different person.

-:-

I arrived at fencing and everyone who saw my FB was interested in my eyelashes.

Only the girl who did not add me on FB noticed my hair was dyed red now.