Wednesday, March 16, 2011

The Church, the Home, the Friends

I was talking to the canteen cleaner auntie in school some time back.

It was late and she asked me how I was going home.

In my broken Chinese I tried to reply...




Me:   My mom and dad are coming to pick me.

Auntie:   So late?

Me:   Yes. My mom works in church.

Auntie:   Orh. She's a cleaner ah?



I was taken aback for a moment.

My mom is a church elder okay!



But when I tried to explain what my mom actually does in church... hmmm...

She comes early to set up and stays on late to clean up.

Which, technically, means she does the exact same job as a cleaner.



Ai yo these Christians ah... why got this kind of servant leader thing.

Make things so difficult to explain to the outside world!


ˆ-ˆ


Last night, Rachel asked me when dad and mom were coming back.

I had no idea.


You know what... I'm not even sure when they left...

Or why...


Hehe kidding about the last one, but I really am not sure when they are returning.


Mom and Dad, if you can hear me, please come home. It's tough running the home without you guys. I am going nuts. You know I actually started liking a girl in school? I think it's because she reminds me of you mom. Please come back and give me a slap or two and ask me to wake up my idea.


-_-


Today Hong Ling caught me buying rings at the school bazaar for a girl.


I had lunch with her and Melanie. Good times.


I told Melanie about the girl I wanted to introduce to my parents. (Don't worry mom and dad, Melanie gave me a slap already.)


I know I'm not functioning properly, so at times like this I need to trust my friends. They shall tell me what I need to hear, though I do not want to hear it, and save me from cognitive dissonance. It's kinda like how Superman gave Batman a Kryptonite ring to keep the man of steel in check should something happen to him that makes him lose his senses. Batman did use it once in a fistfight with Superman, and Superman was ultimately thankful. He was mind controlled or something.


Okay. This is not about rationalizing things. If not, there is no reason why I should not pursue a girl I'm interested in. This is just about... sticking to my guns. I am avoiding anything with girls for the sake of avoiding anything with girls. Enough of all the chasing. I need to live my life without them as a reference point.


God, do so help me.

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